Looking Back….
When November babies
are asked to stand up, be sure I will be one of them. As a Catholic Christian, today
(20/11/2016) happens to be the same day we are celebrating The Solemnity of our
Lord Jesus Christ, King of the Universe and so is my 31st Birthday.
Today, I can comfortably say how old I am/how young I am, a thing I could not do
11 years ago. Back then, I bet I was
suffering from small/young man syndrome reason being that I joined the Police
Service at the age 19 and the environment where Police training was taking
place, age, seniority, rank, physical size and all other subjective attributes
really counted for one to be listened to which made me feel less of a man as I was
young and puny!
The training was no better too because as a Police recruit, one
had no say at the training school and all that I remember instructors telling us almost all the time was that ‘Mumeshinda wazazi na ulimwengu pia na
kwa hivyo hapa hamtatushinda’. This was to mean that we were life rejects and
we had failed in all aspects of life hence we joined the Police Force for lack
of another option hence the training was more of a punishment but not an avenue
to make us better. I was all long a focused, determined, bold, courageous and
determined young man but that was quickly eroded and I was a shell of myself.(
http://kaberemartin.blogspot.co.ke/2013/10/goodbye-my-lovely-village-kiaritha.html
)
With that defeated
mind, I remember vividly that by the time I passed out from GSU Training School
(2005), I had very low self esteem but from outside, no one could notice this
as the outside world barely knows what happens in a Police Training
School/College and the impact it has to an individual. After all, Police Officers
are super beings! That said and done, the journey to my 31st birthday
has been that of ups and downs more so due to my career that has shaped much of
my life to date.
From age 19 and more so
after leaving GSU Training School Embakasi (http://kaberemartin.blogspot.co.ke/2013/10/life-in-gsu-training-school-embakasi-my.html)
it took very few months for the full impact of Police Training and more so work station (http://kaberemartin.blogspot.co.ke/2013/12/life-in-my-first-work-stationwelcome-to.html)
what we call Msituni (In the Jungle) was *loudly* visible in my day to day
lifestyle. From occasional drunkenness
to sexual immorality, Mwangi Wa Kiaritha was completely a new outfit, a rotten one to be
precise. May be, this was a way to cope with the culture shock plus the small
man syndrome but frankly speaking, i thank God am alive. Fast forward, while on
a drinking spree, my drink was spiked (the last day I took beer), parted ways
with the mother of my first born, had another kid with another lady (that was
the turning point in my life).
Moving forward and by
the grace of God, I quit drinking, Joined KCA University for my Undergraduate studies,
where I struggled with low self esteem and eventually overcame it (http://kaberemartin.blogspot.co.ke/2014/05/how-i-joined-kca-university-and.html)
Joined Institute of Human Resource Management for my post graduate Diploma (was
the best KNEC student-Fundamentals of Human Resource Management) and Later
University of Nairobi (http://kaberemartin.blogspot.co.ke/2014/09/my-experience-at-university-of-nairobi.html)
for my Masters degree where I graduated in 2014. I also Joined the Catholic
Charismatic Renewal (I thank God once more for retrieving me from the trenches)
and on 27th/08/2016,I married Jenny,
the Love of my life in a colorful church wedding and all I can say is, to
God be the Glory.
Thanks
heavens I have since moved to the General Duties (http://kaberemartin.blogspot.co.ke/2016/06/one-year-in-blue.html)
and this year, 28th December 2016,God willing, I will be celebrating
12 years in the Police Service and looking back, I thank God for everything
that happened in my past, both good and bad and I can testify that God Lives!
Now,i can face anyone without any issues...
